Having No Plans Is The Best Plan

     I'm not in college (temporarily), I haven't had a job for a few weeks except for a few babysitting jobs that cover the bills. I really have no responsibilities except for church every Sunday. This is weird. I have always been the type to keep busy. Responsibility after responsibility. But being completely honest, I have never felt so relaxed & close to God. I never get bored because I find things to fill my time, things that I enjoy.

     I have been using this time to figure out what I want to do & who I want to be. It's a lot harder now that I'm older- when I was younger I wanted to be a mermaid- now I have to consider what will keep me financially stable but at the same time be something that I would enjoy for the rest of my life. I was thinking of things I NEED in a career. A career that means something, one that keeps me on my feet, a career where I am constantly helping people. I have felt so much pressure to figure it out so I can have a plan & start working towards it. 

     God has really shaken up my world lately. I feel as if EVERYTHING has changed & I have no plans. At first, this scared me- I hated not knowing what my future looked like- but now, it's freeing. I've realized that God doesn't have plans to hurt me & I need to let go & let God.

Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

      I've really grown closer to God because I spend time in his word & appreciating the world he has given us. Because I have time, I spend time truly investing in people lives & taking time out of my life to ask, "Is there anything  I can pray about for you." Nine times out of ten, they have been waiting for someone to ask & knowing I can truly help & be there for someone without having my major declared is the most satisfying feeling. 

-priscilla

My Relational Relationship

I grew up in the perfect "christian scenario." My parents were both old fashioned baptists, we attended a small baptist church every time the doors were open, & I was enrolled at a private christian school up until the time I graduated high school. It wasn't until I was taken out of these circumstances that I fully understood having a personal relationship with God.

Since I grew up being forced to learn every single day about God & how amazing & wonderful he is, it took away any desire I might have to learn that for myself. I was so focused on the facts about God so I could ace my next bible test, that I completely forgot about having a relationship with Him.

After high school, when I faced the "real world," I realized that loving God isn't based on a religion, its based on a relationship. Once I was out on my own and God wasn't being shoved down my throat every day, I actually wanted to learn about him on my own. I believe it takes desiring God to have a genuine relationship with Him.

God did this so that they would seek him & perhaps reach out for him & find him, though he is not far from any one of us. -Acts 17:27

Selfie of me hugging Jesus. 

Apartment Inspiration

As some of you may know I recently moved into my own apartment! It's been an awesome experience so far: Cleaning my own messes, having guests over, & my absolute favorite- decorating. First, I love simplicity. The smallest things can really brighten up a room. I swear, flowers in a vase can completely change my mood. Also, I absolutely love journals. The only problem with me & journals is I never write in them. But other than that we have a pretty good relationship.

The "Pray Big" wooden sign is from Altar'D State!

Since I've been on my own I go out a lot more. Now that I live closer to town I love just randomly leaving & going to a little antique shop or one of my favorite stores- hobby lobby- to walk around for inspiration. (: They are the perfect places to find little bird cages like this one below & hobby lobby is also where I bought my flowers! I add water in the vase to make it a little more realistic. (:

-priscilla